From the
teachings of
Saint Dorotheus, abbot
(11th Century)
On false spiritual peace
The man who finds
fault with himself accepts all things cheerfully - misfortune, loss,
disgrace, dishonor and any other kind of adversity. He believes that he is
deserving of all these things and nothing can disturb him. No one could be
more at peace than this man. But perhaps you will offer me this objection: "Suppose
my brother injures me, and on examining myself I find that I have not given
him any cause. Why should I blame myself?" Certainly if someone examines himself carefully and
with fear of God, he will never find himself completely innocent. He will
see that he has given some provocation by an action, a word or by his
manner. If he does find that he is not guilty in any of these ways,
certainly he must have injured that brother somehow at some other time. Or
perhaps he has been a source of annoyance to some other brother. For this
reason he deserves to endure the injury because of many other sins that he
has committed on other occasions. Someone else asks why he should accuse himself when he
was sitting peacefully and quietly when a brother came upon him with an
unkind or insulting word. He cannot tolerate it, and so he thinks that his
anger is justified. If that brother had not approached him and said those
words and upset him, he never would have sinned. This kind of thinking is surely ridiculous and has no
rational basis. For the fact that he has said anything at all in this
situation breaks the cover on the passionate anger within him, which is all
the more exposed by his excessive anxiety. If he wished, he would do
penance. He has become like a clean, shiny grain of wheat that, when broken,
is full of dirt inside. The man who thinks that he is quiet and peaceful has
within him a passion that he does not see. A brother comes up, utters some
unkind word and immediately all the venom and mire that lie hidden within
him are spewed out. If he wishes mercy, he must do penance, purify himself
and strive to become perfect. He will see that he should have returned
thanks to his brother instead of returning the injury, because his brother
has proven to be an occasion of profit to him. It will not be long before he
will no longer be bothered by these temptations. The more perfect he grows,
the less these temptations will affect him. For the more the soul advances,
the stronger and more powerful it becomes in bearing the difficulties that
it meets.
Source: The Liturgy of
the Hours - Office of Readings
Saint
Dorotheus, abbot, was born into a
noble family at Trebizond on the Black Sea, Dorotheus and left home at twelve
to escape entering into a marriage arranged by his parents and became a monk at Genna Monastery at
Amisos, Pontus. He was later ordained a priest. Ordered to build a monastery by an
unknown stranger, he did so at Khiliokomos, near Amison (Samsun Turkey), and
became its abbot. He experienced ecstasies, was gifted with the ability to
prophesy, and performed numerous miracles.